~vivinefertari

[I WANT TO WATCH L: CHANGE THE WORLD!IT'S BEEN ONLY TWO DAYS AND IT ALREADY FEELS LIKE FOREVER!]
By the way,in this post,...
L is for Lysander (unless otherwise stated)
Dem is for Demetrius
"he" is the director
The following is going to sound quite unlike me.At the ending part at least.
Quite unlike me,especially to certain people like Za(buza),perhaps Iman,but then again with who was involved,it's kind of justified.
Today we had a rehearsal.
It was a rehearsal without Hermia.Which was a sad thing. (No one to insult is a sad thing.I mean,I think [Hermia's actress] hates me now,but the hate might actually be worth it because of the emotional release it gives me.)
The rehearsal itself was sad too,since soon my love [Helena] had to leave,and I had no one to fanboy over.And then...HE DROPPED THE BOMB.
"It has become apparent that the men...can't act like men.Demetrius doesn't sound manly enough,and Lysander...doesn't stand like a guy."
(OKAY SO I WAS SAVED BY THE RUBBISH VOICE ACTING I DID WHEN I WAS A KID TO AMUSE MY PEOPLE but I don't stand like a guy because I'm surrounded by effeminate guys.Mostly.I think so at least.Don't get me started on Dad.)
Then he stood like a manly man would. (D'oh!HE CAN READ MINDS.)
(...in retrospect I should have asked Za[buza].BUT MOVING ON.)
HE TURNED L AND DEM INTO SIX-YEAR-OLDS.In clothes and movement,at least.
L and Dem now have to hold a teddy bear and a giant lollipop each. (D8)
And wear childish shirts (DD8)
And wear shorts (DDDDDDDDDDDDD8 I NEVER WEAR SHORTS.NEVER.Except during PE which doesn't count.I stole mine later from my brother)
...yes.And L and Dem lose their caps for sth more childish. (DDD8 Mine was designed by...someone close!)
L and Dem tried acting like kids for a while.And it wasn't good.Since my voice somehow tends to change based on my perceptions,...well let's just say if you want a brief idea of what I sounded like,just imagine the transition voice between a normal person and Hunny-senpai.(But it was mildly fun.I got to do a bit of a cute Death Note L-impression,since evidently he's a bit of a big kid.)
So we returned to normal people.In childish clothes.
Puck became a sophisticated charming person.
{In protest of the teddy bear and the giant lollipop,I have decided to put my *own* measures in place.
I'm getting a teddy bear,alright.I'm using the bear my brother won from a skill crane in Japan (that being one of the only things he's good at other than fanboying over Roald Dahl),which is white,with a black nose with blood dripping down under it (it has no mouth,I believe they're joined),as well as black claws coated at the end with blood red,and a plush scythe,and a BLACK GRIM REAPER HOOD. (I hear it's called a Chiaki Bear or something.That's what its label says anyway,but I can't find it on Google.So no pictures.)
And I'm taking a marshmallow lollipop.}
Anyhow,it ended badly.BADLY.
And he thought so too.
And,for a brief moment,he had a look on his face that was there for such a short while I can't even remember what it looks like anymore.
I can't even remember if he was directing or slowly losing it.
But there it was.
And I saw it.
And so did Dem.
And so did Puck.
The only one who was kind of off the hook was Oberon.
But never mind.
What did happen was that it made me feel horrible.
Really horrible.
Dem later told me that if we had plays based on ourselves we'd do ourselves no justice. Me and Dem felt particularly guilty,because he'd spent the most time on us.And we could see it,and we could feel his disappointment.
And on normal days,all of us know he emos,but this was the first time I'd felt that I'd actually contributed directly to his emo attitude.And that he wasn't faking it this time.I mean,he's never lost his temper before,goodness knows how many times he's had to let his anger and whatnot stay in his head when people like me would simply explode and take it out on anyone within a 5-metre radius.I have to salute him for that,I really do.
I probably feel like a policeman who's accidentally fired at a civilian at point-blank range.
...
I never want to see him look like that ever [link] guilt that comes with it is crushing me even now,six hours later.My Chinese teacher asked me on Monday,"Have you no guilt,no shame?" and I said yes,rather cheerfully,but I guess now I have to reconsider that.
And this is going to sound weird coming from me,but I actually now feel an obligation to make him feel good.Maybe not by any other way,but by my successful delivery of the role of L.And I hope I never forget this,because if I do,my drive to play L will die.
Perhaps one day I *will* forget this,but at least,let that day come after March 15th.Or after this year.Or long after he's left my life,either never to return,or to lose touch with me that I may never so much as speak to him again.
While I've managed to draw real-life parallels between my and Lysander's relationships,I still feel guilty.
Perhaps it was good then,that when Puck,Dem,Oberon and I walked out of school today,Dem hit upon the idea of throwing a coin into a bush.We put our hands on the coin,and prayed for ourselves.
It was strangely therapeutic.

First,a shameless tag thanks to Za(buza)
RULES:
1. type the rules of the tag
2. answer each of the following questions.
3.tag eight other people

1. What’s your favorite color?
Blue,Purple,Pink (LAZYTOWN 8D) and Green
2. do you play sports?
*caresses Roy*
3. What are your likes?
Many things
4. What are your dislikes?
Many things
5. Who is your role model?
Many people
6. If you could meet anyone who would it be?
Kenichi Matsuyama and Magnus Scheving.
7. where do you live?
Singapore (NO PIRATES D8)
8. What is your opinion of your country?
I'm keeping that in my head for security reasons,thank you.Wouldn't want to be purged.
9. If you could go anywhere where would it be?
Japan,and America.
10. What is something interesting about you?
Interesting vivinefertari is... interesting.

I EATED ALL TAG PEOPLES.

Byakuya's birthday is in TWO DAYS 8D
He gives me happiness ^^.

I made a podcast on swearing for English class.Please don't go looking for it even though it's somewhere on the Internet.The voices were entirely done by me and tweaked to the point of sounding artificial.But I guess that's what happens when you depend too heavily on Audacity.

EVERYONE PLEASE GO AND WATCH GANDHI MY FATHER.IT IS MADE OF WIN. ^^

L's MOVIE IS COMING UP!!!
*is too happy for words*

Okay.
naos.
another L-thing.
that has nothing to do with death note.
(this is the cue for Za to close the tab/window and say "I know what is coming next".)
(let's wait for her to do that.)


















ELDDS has a reading of Midsummer Night's Dream coming up.
I'm L.
LYSANDER 8DDDDDDDDDDDD
I couldn't believe it actually.I came late to ELDDS today because *somebody* wanted her work done.Apparently people got told their roles before I came.
After CCA,at about eight in the night,Saku (the vice-chairperson) calls and says "Did you know,you're Lysander in A Midsummer Night's Dream?"
Me: "I'm WHO?!"
*does impression of Riverdance*
So yes.Fun fun. ^^

...
I got tagged.For the first time in liek evar.Which be only reason why I do this.

The Five Golden Rules! >D

1.Post these rules
2.Each person must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3.Tags should write a journal of these facts
4.At the end of this post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5.Go to there page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

DAMMIT.

1. I have a long tongue. (Is one of the driving forces behind my aspiration to someday become Orochi.)
2. I was a Brainiest contestant in 2004 (when I was 12).I made it to the 3rd semifinal round,then got pwned baddddddly.
3. I can dance the Hare Hare Yukai and the Honna Sainara.
4. I like staring at the shades in blonde hair.If it becomes a trend,you know who the weirdo who started it is.
5. In obscure referencing to the one person I've actually properly cosplayed,I have one of those things you press for character quotes.I have Renji (all he says is "I found you").And I also have a Yoruichi hanging from my handphone (MOAR OBSCURE REFERENCING).
6. I fence.It wasn't until last Saturday that I finally understood that I shouldn't worry about Roy (that's my foil),and it wasn't until last Saturday that I won a match.
7. (GROSS ALERT.SRSLY.)i can draw out mucus from the back roof of my mouth with my tongue (you do kind of know it was a bit of a mistake to make me do this right?... XD)
8. I'll take a seiyuu course.Eventually...But I won't limit myself to sounding like Hani-senpai.

There, done! Now for the tagging...

I tag thee: ~winter-ghost,~DessicatedCrone,*MrsGreenleafLittrel,=SirCrocodile,~anemptypage,~saint-september...the other two,choose yourselves.

ps.I FINALLY HAVE INSPIRATION!As morbid as said inspiration is...it'll have to do.

There're a lot of sad things,and happy things,that happened in this year.
I met `zemotion.
My ex-Drama-teacher-in-charge passed away.
I forced my way into sound management.
...because I failed SYF cast auditions.
I won my brother in fencing.
I had the most autocratic form teacher I knew.
I cosplayed at open house.
Not many people in my class would actually talk to me except to shut me up.
I went to my first cosplay conventions.
Nearly all the teachers were out to get me.
I went to Japan and saw a guy who was kinda cute ^^.
I failed chemical calculations with an epic 4 out of 30.
I got out of Outdoor Adventure Camp after three days,and had Japanese curry the day after that.
I harboured "anti-establishment,nonconformist ideas".
I knew love.
I knew hate.
I had great friends.
I had great enemies.
I forgave the person I used to envy to the point of extreme hate,and invited her to church.
She stood me up.
This was the best year of my life.
This was the worst year of my life.
I wouldn't exchange this year for anything else.
I'll forget all the bad in this year and have a teflon heart. (:

OMG EOY WAS TEH EXCELLENCE!There were so many great awesome cosplayers out there,and ~winter-ghost was there with me!Not to mention Liyana-senpai (i pressured her ^^) and Zakuro-chan (she came by herself)! ^w^
I was the kenseikanless Byakuya.(There was another Byakuya with a kenseikan,but I WAS TALLER.)
On to my mindless gushing.
There was this REALLY BEAUTIFUL Suigintou!She had the prettiest poses though she didn't look the least bit evil.She was mobbed by cameramen all the time,and the only picture I have of her has an ominous brown cloud to the left of the picture (it's my finger >< ) BUT SHE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL IT WAS ALL GOOD. [link]
And there was a really cute Hina-Ichigo too!Though she looked older than me.But she was so cute it was okay. [link]
First thing I did when I got there was meet ~winter-ghost,then take a picture of Hina-chan,then go to `zemotion's booth to buy the four pictures that were stuck in my head since the night before.(My mother sort of scolded me for that afterwards.BUT I DIDN'T MIND!)
There was these two awesome awesome Zidane and Freya cosplayers!Seriously awesome!I've never played FFIX before,but I've seen enough to know that making Freya is hell.But it happened!Darn they were good. [link]
Then there was the graffiti board.It was pretty.Most of it,at least.And then I came along.And in Byakuya's drawing style (ie. rabbits with eyelashes),I drew a Cloud and Sephiroth,both holding their swords,Cloud saying "AERIS!" and Sephiroth saying "MATERIA!". Then I signed my name (for the day) and wrote it in kanji.(HANDWRITING FAIL.) [link]
The graffiti board also had a few anti-Odex messages on it. (I'd thought of adding one myself.However since I wasn't directly affected,I passed.) [link] [link]
After that me and another guy (who saw me taking the picture and began a conversation) talked about Odex and how they were over the top.
And after that I saw an ALLEN WALKER ZOMG WITH THE EYES!One was blue and one was RED! (Zakuro-chan knows her ^^.Later I would ask her to play strip poker,the trouble being that neither of us had cards.) [link] (yes,that seated figure behind allen is ~winter-ghost)
The arrancar team (and my liutenant with his hair that didn't stick up)(well okay fine I was not much better,kenseikanless and all.) were pretty good too.And that was the cutest Ulquiorra I ever saw. [link]
LOL THERE WAS A KOMUI.WITH THE MUG! [link]
ASH KETCHUM?!In this day and age,seriously,who the heck watches Pokemon anymore?But I salute his bravery,but would like to say that ASH HAS TWO Zs ON HIS FACE FOR SOME REASON!IT DEFINES HIM!And LOL FATAL FURY CAP.But he were a great Ash,particularly because he was so brave as to cosplay Ash. [link]
Then there was the super duper cute Hunny-senpai,who was a kid.Not particularly handsome or particularly cute,but when he spoke...my heart melted a little.And I did a parody of *behindinfinity's "The cuteness...it slays me..." with my handphone (not shown). [link] (oh and it got even cuter when my phone conveniently rang with Doki Doki Waku Waku as the ringtone.)
MOVING ON.
I bought the latest issue of Fresh Mode,as well as the third issue,because I never had it.I did not go all Teru Mikami-ish on it like I did to the second issue of Fresh Mode when I bought it at Cosfest.
I WANT A TABLET.I WANT A TABLET I WANT A TABLET I WANT A TABLET. >< *sits and sulks*
Eventually me and Liyana-senpai and ~winter-ghost sat down.I bought a tiara from the Black Alice booth,the kind my sister always wanted,for $10. (Expensive by Singaporean standards,but cheaper than the one I saw in Japan at 1050 yen,and definitely prettier.)
Later I wore it while the individual cosplay competition was going on,still in my Byakuya clothes.~winter-ghost has a rather unflattering picture,and if you want you can pester her into posting it.
Amarant is pretty ^w^ but I never knew his eyes were green (the effects of dollfie eyeshadow) (WHY DID I FORGET TO GET A PHOTO!)
Walked round one last time before leaving.I saw Lenalee and Kanda and Lavi when I walked out. [link] [link]
All in all,EOY was awesome!Shall look forward to next year,after (ACK) O levels.

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...in an effort to kill my solid art block,I'm considering starting the 100 themes challenge.

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

...I'm going to need to think about it.